God has us!

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.” Proverbs 9:10.



The knowledge of the holy one. Right now my constant rate or fraction with the Lord is always a lack of trust or even balance. I have been saying the same prayer since I became clean and sober from drugs. I learned to lean on a simple prayer,"God, Grant me the Serenity, to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things i can, and the Wisdom to know the difference." The balance part is there, I am able to prioritize and handle situations completely different then resorting to a whiskey coke as liquid courage to approach conversations without fail. I'm not trying to manipulate the world to do my bidding anymore (well at least less than I was at, i'm working on progress). But seeking God at times of trouble and being surprised when God answers prayers as if it was a christmas miracle and not trully believing that God has unlimited power and resources at his disposal. Lord help me with my unbelief. "Immediately the boy's father exclaimed, "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!" (Mark 9:24).

The Serenity prayer holds a lot of power especially in the realm of recovery. It runs deep into the souls of many people trying to turn away from a life of guilt, shame, pain and loss. Help me with my unbelief, we ask God to provide something for us and when we get it we turn our back from the provider. It's like a heroin addict going to get methadone without acknowledging the harm reduction tactic as a helpful tool to mend the dope sickness. It's like being ungrateful with the amount of food on our trays, or complaining about a lack of sleep when we ignore the grim reality that someone didn't sleep at all last night.

Help me with my unbelief...especially when i'm in desperate measures and completely and utterly alone. I sometimes believe only "Help me when it's convienent to me and my needs." We are at a point where we say to God "Help me get to the top of Maslows Pyramid but than God, please step out of my way." We ignore our provider, as teenagers, as children do. We all need to work on the view of unbelief. God provides our necesities every single second. The very breath you are breathing right now has been provided and planned out. Our blueprint and very deep moral fiber, beliefs, attitudes all planned out. God has us...God always had us.

We get surprised also when we know we can't do something on our own and only God can provide us with answers or strength to continue to do some of the things we do. He gives us life. That should be enough, God has already giving us a kingdom all the riches here on earth are nothing compared to what we get when the episode on this planet ends for us. God has us! ever since the Old Testament he says "My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." (Exodus 33:14). The Lord rescues me from every attack and will bring me safely to his heavenly kingdom. To him be the glory for ever and ever (2 Timothy 4:18). God has us! It's not about your way, it's about Yahweh!


The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. (Romans 16:20).

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